Dare mo inai

Alright im back again, new semester well actually went a whole semester without posting but whatever last semester was wack! this semester ive got no complaints other then of course profs SUK but no complaints about the classes. im doing my best to actually keep up with the work, this time no failing! applying to university again and hopefully gettin in!! totally havint been keeping up with dramas/anime lately but if/when i get into university i can just catch up then right? i wont be updating in this post the events of last semester i totally dont have time for it but i will next time.. maybe lol. anyways just like to say hey to u all out there letting u know im still alive haha. back to homework, be back tomorrow:)

Wow i haven't posted since Death note eppy 25... soo long ago well Yagami Light is still winning so im still happy and were on eppy 32!!! its now the 1st of june well nothing much happened during this time besides me passing all my classes which i was very happy about^^ i almost ended up failing womens history but then Nabeela totally saved me on that one by doing half my essay for me!! i she hadnt done that i would have failed for sure. now im in summer school making up for the course i failed in first semester but the teacher is really nice and my class is really small so it isnt stressful at all.

As usual ive done a lot of fangirling over KAT-TUN and found that the first person i actually liked from that group isnt the one i like most anymore now that ive actually gotten to know the group better lol Akanishi is definatly my favorite now and of all people Maru is my second favorite! hes just so on crack and i just love that, totally entertaining!! after watching nobuta wo produce i dont hate YamaPinku anymore his character in that drama is similar to Maru in that hes totally cracked as well so i like hehe^^ Nabeela and i have decided to eventually do some KAT-TUN cosplays so we became AKAME (Akanishi Jin and Kamenashi Kazuya). its too cute we sang a bunch of their songs and try to casually dress up like them and went on Akame "dates" heh. and literally if i told u about them ud think they were dates too! just like the real Akame minus the actually being lovers ne kazu kazu..>>..? lol!

Anime north just came and went, i spent most of May working on my costumes to get them finished on time and i still ended up doing things right up to last minute!! what made it all worse was the weekend b4 anime north someone in my extended family died so that whole weekend that i planned on preparing for anime north on, was taken up by all these traditional things we had to do with the family-___-' Thursday comes along and i had to meet DOWNTOWN of all places with everyone to watch Pirates3! and just b4 i leave i find out that someone else has died-____- so that delayed me and i was almost late, in fact i made it JUST in time the opening adds had JUST finished, i got lucky. the movie wasnt as great as i thought it would be but it was still good haha well of course it was Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom*fangirlyness*!!

Friday it was hell gettin to the hotel i had too much stuff with me so i had to waste money on a taxi to get to the hotel. once i got there everyone was checked in already pretty much, and i looked and smelled terrible after the whole sweaty ordeal to get there so i immediatly hit the shower! Sexy Ashley fixed my wedding yuna wings for me in fact she pretty much dressed me that weekend cuz both my chii cosplay and my yuna cosplay were totally impossible to put on entirely by myself. but pretty much everyone who was in our room helped me at one point! another sexy girl Yivie fixed my hair for me:P Nabeela with chiis ribbon and Sam with attaching the yuna wings! cosplaying is just too much work! not to mention expensive too!! i should be like Nabeela and just borrow cosplays, she wore V-chan's(Vishal) Prince of tennis jacket and it was too cute it was HUGE on her literally ALMOST at her knees too cute! well actually over all she was too cute:P it was her first time getting to actually stay overnight at AN with us so she was overly excited^^

Christina was a goddess as usual she made a PERFECT Kurogane everyone loved her and if her cosplay wasnt so fragile i would have totally torn her apart XD in a good way of course:P unfortuantly we didnt get to take any chiiXkuro pix though:( she's sexy without the cosplay too:P it was like overload of sexyness!! there were a few incidents and drama going on with the hotel rooms and people gettin into arguments-__- really causing stress so i think that had a lot to do with why it wasnt the greatest AN and poor Christina was in the middle of it all! she did give me a "gift" (which im still thanking her for btw) and that pretty much took up my whole AN and at the time i didnt think of the consequences (im certainly experiencing them now though) but its okay i wouldnt change a thing. i regret that i didnt get to spend as much time with her as i would have liked but i promised to make it up to her somehow.

events? Went to the clamp photoshoot where sexy Kurogane stole the show XD!! muahaha!! we were in the karaoke room one night and Tina sang endless story which was soo adorable she was in her pjs! saturday night was "eventful" (..>>..) we actually went and danced at the Jpop dance this year and the music was bad but we danced anyways, Sam and Glam Boris had a dry humping moment which was hilarious!! we went to dinner at 2am, well friday we sorta did that too and that time the dinner got out of hand when Tina started talkin dirty about the food tsk tsk "white stuff" u say? haha!! sunday was shopping day even though i didnt buy anything spent most of the day in the dealers room then went to lunch and stuffed my face as fast as humanly possible b4 the rain came down and soaked up my cosplay-__- after that we just sat around and hung out till it one by one people started to leave and i had to run out suddenly as well because my dad was pissed and didnt even get to do my usual goodbye which consists of clinging to Christina for as long as possible haha lol anyways The weekend itself went by really really quickly and i met a lot of new crazy and exciting people, and met up with people i had hoped to meet again from last year. but i didnt really get to spend a lot of time with the people who i really wanted to spend more time with, 3 days isnt just enough time...so i dunno if this makes sense but it was both the best AND the worst Anime North ever...

(again sorry for typos too lazy to fix em)

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG LIGHT WON!! finally everything is PERFECT!! but it was really sad how L died.... just when there was sum L X Light shonen ai, REM KILLS L! she couldnt wait till morning to kill him?! im SURE L would have made use of Light that night he was feeling really depressed and lonely it was soooo sad:(:( but as i've said b4 he needed to die so im celebrating:D L was just sitting there watching his screens when everything goes blank and watari dies, then L also has a heartattack and falls right off his chair into Lights arms, Light puts on a really concerned face at first but then turns slightly so that only L can see him and he smirks his sexy sadistic smirk as L dies in his arms. then Light screams and put on this HUGE act saying he will avenge L and everyone else who died. now that Rem is dead Misa's life has once again been extended so i imagine that Light will use her quite a bit now that he doesnt have to worry about Rem killing him^^ cant wait till the next eppy to see Ryuk again, ahhh Lighto and his genius....aishteru^^

RIP L...

Well as usual the assignments are piling up and exams are around the corner, and of course im slacking off leaving things till last minute. havent even opened a textbook since the beginning of the year. gonna need sum major luck to pass the exams. then 2 weeks break..then summer skool ugh too much skool. next week i start looking for a job as well, need to get money for anime north n stuff. its amazing how quickly money dissappears. whats confusing is that just last week my mom was being a total biatch and now all of a sudden she wants go to go on vacation with me WTF i dont really wanna go but theres no way out of it:S well i dont even know if thats gonna happen becuase ive only got 2 weeks off b4 summer skool, such short notice, either that or the 2weeks i have off b4 the fall semester begins *shrugs* well i dunno whats gonna happen. ANYWAYS this week i just randomly started watching sum clips that nabeela sent me when i came across a series of ero ero dances(L)_(L)amazingly hot!! BUT the one that i loved the most was the Akanishi Jin's....lets jsut say it should be illegal for a man to be able to movie his hips like that such a slut.. damn..(L)_(L)lol im about |-| this close to naming him a God haha kya!*fangirlyness* ok yeah i will AKANISHI JIN U ARE A GOD!!

this weekend was totally awsome, got to meet up with everyone, cosplay madness, hot guys, the works^^ saturday was hilarious lots of random pix the best part was when my wig flew off and hit Boris in the face haha classic. saturday night was insane too much DDR and giggling teehehehe. sunday was pretty dead at the con, we went to jackastors and everyone was drawing and writing randomthings on the table^^ after that we went back to the con and it was still dead but we did randomly see Sean out of nowhere haha. next was karaoke where there was once again a mass of hot guys hehehe we were there for a few hours singing random songs and "lalala"-ing to things we didnt know. monday was blah i pretty much slept all day skipping school because there was no way i was gettin out of bed later in the afternoon i went and hungo ut with my best friend for a while just to get away from parents.
Of course a week cant go by without a fight with mother. she was asking me a TON of STUPID and NOSEY questions that are 1)none of her business 2)have nothing to do with her and 3)dont affect her life in any way, shape, or form. She keeps going on about how i dont know how good i have it with them, well fuck of course i know because i know where i stand with how good or bad i have it in relation to others, but what she fuckin fails to realize is that SHE ALSO HAS IT FUCKIN GOOD with me, look at me, im in college, i hardly ever go out and if i do go out im never out past 11pm unless im with family OR on a date which is RARE, i dont smoke, i dont drink enough to be drunk, i dont have men callin the house or picking me up, im not sexually active, i do everybodys fuckin laundry in this house and clean if really necessary WHAT MORE COULD I POSSIBLY BE DOING?! i WAS working but they wanted me to quit so i did but im going to find another job and start working again because i cant keep going to them for money and have them talk to me this way, im doing the best i can and if they cant specify what exactly it is they want from me then fuck them.

OMFG..once again the total incompetence that i have to deal with. wednesday my dad told me to call him about half an hr before i needed picking up so i said ok itll be around 7:30. that was the arrangement made in the morning when i left. so its now 7:30 and its taking a bit longer then expected but i thought that was ok because he said ot call him anyways so i hopped on a bus when i was finished and went to pinevalley which was closer for him to pick me up and then i called him only to find out that he was waiting at seneca since 7:30. okay first of all i wasnt even at seneca this whole time and second that was not the arrangement and what he couldnt call me to let me know that he was out there either? isnt what what fucking cell phones are for? he gets all pissed off and was like "dont u have a cell phone too why didnt u call" like wtf i wasnt leaving yet so why would i call? so he did this all to himself:@:@
ok thursday went fine whatever today was another friggin disaster. i came home all hyper n whatever n then mother starts going on about how i dont spend enough time doing my work thats why my grades are so poor. ok 1)she has no clue what my grades are and 2)she has no clue the amount of fucking work that i do every day. shes like how i need ot read more like fuck theres only so much reading a person can do in a fuckin day especially with the bullshit reading i gets where the page is nothing but words no diagrams no pictures just plain black and white page of words. so i got all pissed and brought one of the textbooks and pointed out how long a nights fuckin reading is and she was like "well thats what u should be doing thats what were paying money for not for u to watch stupid anime crap and talk to your friends" OKAY U FUCKING BITCH if i wasnt doing the fucking reading then id be fucking failing!!!!! its not so easy to get fucking 98 and 100% like she did in the fucking 3rd world country that she grew up in where they were fetching water from wells and had no electricity:@ I AM DOING THE FUCKING READINGS just NOT when shes fuckin awake and u know why?! because shes constantly in and out of my fucking room telling fucking nonsense!! its best to read either a)at skool during one of my long ass breaks between classes or b)when people are sleeping in this house. and like wow its a real crime to watch anime and have friends now eh? shes all like "this is the time to study u wont be in school forever after u get out of school u can do whatever u want" ok we all know what bullshit that is because work is more hell then school is i really wont have time for shit then will i?! ill end up just as miserable as she is:@ im doing the fucking best i can!! what she thinks i like being frustrated the way i am? she thinks i like geting a nothing over a 75% on an essay and no matter what i do that never changes?! this is what happens when u have parents who didnt grow up in this country they just dont understand how everything works and that things are a LOT easier said then done.

sorry about any typos but after that i REALLY dont want to go and fix them.

well about the summer skool thing i made up a whole bullshit story that my parents actually bought so they are actually paying for it haha suckers. but that still doesnt save me from my current bombardment of work:|

Sociology Midterm - March 5th
Philosophy Paper - March 7th
English Assignment - March 7th
History Midterm - March 8th

so much for reading week eh? well of course i havent started any of them yet... but i will like right now..after i finish with this entry *sigh* also damnit ebay how i hate thee!! *shakes fist* totally addictive-__-' the money that i saved from not having ot pay for summer skool ill prolly be spent on ebay...sad...

Found out about summer school yesterday and that its not $250 its $350 AND they want their money by fricken March 21st!! I dont have enough right now and i dont know if i will have enough. Luckily my bestest best friend City says she'll help out (thank u City!!! I luv u!! haha). the next wave of assignments and test are comming up oh well just a few more weeks till study week soo just gotta hang in there a bit longer! Naruto fillers are finally over and its about fricken time hoooooolay!! but death note has taken a turn into confusion what da hell is going on!?!??! who da hell are those retarded old guys?!?! anyways thats all for today gotta get back to the laundry...fun...

yesterday totally made a fool of myself stepping in a hole twisting my ankle and falling over running for the bus-__-'but the 2 dudes who were running with me for the bus were nice enough to pick me up and pull me along as we continued to run for the stupid bus. well now my hand is bruised i poured sum rubbing alcohol on it and enjoyed the burning sensation. today its healing^-^ i went to the bank to transfer some money over to a friend who i keep shamlessly asking to get stuff off ebay for me -__-'''' stupid bank doesnt know what da hell they are doing but hopefully this time it went though cus i FROZE MY ASS off going there today. now i'm just sitting warming up going through my music folders gettin rid of songs i dont listen to anymore heh thats all for today!

alrighty updates, Feb1st skipped critical thinking, humanities test not as bad as i thought and then french well french always sucks so no comment there. Feb2nd skipped social science AGAIN i really need to start going to that class. came in for french and dont even know why i bothered to do that becuase no one was there anyways. then of course the usual friday routine, laundry and Death Note what a combo but anyways things are back in Yagami Light-samas favor soo I'm happy about it^-^. Feb3rd was awsome hung out with Tanty-Kym and my best friend City went to both Woodbine center and Woodbine race track totally froze our butts off but it as fun anyways. We went to Mandarin as planned for lunch and the waitor was in a totally bad mood which was hilarious becase all the waitrESSES were all cheerful maybe he was sour because hes depressed that none of them are interested in him hahaha. While at the mall I finally for the flowers for my Wedding Yuna cosplay YAY! so now were at 95% for that cosplay which is the best its gonna get because I dont intend to buy white pumps or a veil. after that i came home and watched Hana Yori Dango2 ep4 and my God things are always just getting more and more intense. Finally today went shopping for a toaster oven because our last one sorta blew up...sorta hahathen went to visit the neighbours newborn baby girl she is sooo adorable and she stays with anyone shes not one of those babies who cries all the when with anyone else besides mom or dad lol. Now im back home cleaning up my room its too dusty. Then of course gotta do my homework sometime so tonight it is haha thats all for now!